Cappucino & Latte

Cappuccino & Latte friend story in on the road.

Expecting?

Lets just keep on running for this story,

feel so good recently have this Cappucino,

when Latte feel tired.

Cappuccino is sweet not bitter, because sweet til cover the bitter taste.

Thanks :) 

So fast gonna end of the Jan,

the 2010 year 1st month is gone soon..

still have 11 months to go, that what we gonna face different kind of challenge.

Alright CNY is coming soon!

lets enjoy!

Cappuccino, miss Latte banyak sikit wor.. :P

Achievement . Give Up?

终于昨天有了消息了，蛮好的消息。

我已经升级了，从普通的Officer 升到 Senior Officer了。

薪水也起了些，花红也得到了，值得高兴的事。

但我还是必须的努力，一直的继续努力。我相信我能的。

但是希望接下来的日子，能顺顺利利吧。有这样的成果，希望下次也会同样的成果吧。

没有你的消息第二十三天

一直听着“一个人勇敢” ，让我觉得这个时候爱情对我很厌倦，累但又渴望着纯真的爱情。

可是心里好想对她们说，可是最后想了一晚，觉得还是放弃。

因为我自己真的好害怕，害怕得到伤害。不想再受伤。

那，我决定了，我还是不说，我选择沉默。因为我觉得大家是不可能发生这一段感情。

我.放.弃

至于没她的第二十三天，谢谢你当时对我的坦白，让我本来留在原地的我，开始提起那不舍得的脚步离开了。最后，对你不再恨了，因为失去了以后我觉得比较愉快了。一心一想的想过着我想要得生活。

卓文萱 - 一个人勇敢


你想要的 我不明白

明明可以 爱得很自然

两个人世界多简单

就是我爱你 你爱我 不难

你还是 离开

你的决定 与我无关

我能理解 我不会责怪

这是你给我的答案

你要我接受 却还要我等待

等不到一个未来

我不相信爱很难

没有一点温度 残留下来

你失踪的爱 我的幸福跟你离开

谢谢你那么坦白

原来失去以后 比较愉快不会再伤感

 就算爱很难 我也不怕失败一定有一天

我会比你想象更勇敢

 你带走了爱 我在原地不曾离开

谢谢你让我明白

我学会灿烂

一个人勇敢

大日子 Woo Hoo

大日子万岁！笑着感动~

无消息的第二十二天:

这几天的我都是这个时间睡觉，我觉得我自己真的疯了。

毫无记忆。

刚才我有一股很强烈的感觉，在2009年的“突然的回来”，

我有说到，原来只是梦一场！梦醒了，一切又恢复成原来的样子了！

这句话，我和某个人有一段很短很短的感情，我不懂算是，还是不是。

就觉得，怪怪的。因为我竟然找上了xxxxx。（不是我以前女友），很突然的一刻。

那时候一切来得很突然，对不起。

那时候的我，真的太过冲动，完全失去理智。

我不做任何决定是因为，那时候的我依然还爱着那个她。

爱情不是两方面说，我愿意和你在一起的，

要了解，要体谅，需要一些时间的，

不可以就说，一见钟情！

我也知道你也爱着那个他，所以你也说了，

原来只是梦一场！梦醒了，一切又恢复成原来的样子了！

可是，你们觉得我应不应该再给自己一个机会？

最后的结果还是等于0 ，

我觉得现在的我很开心，但总是还不能满足。

怎么啦？

 或许，时间会慢慢给我适合的答案，让我去解决。

你们应该不懂我在说那个她。

原来我的感情是多么复杂。

乱乱乱~

感同身受

终于有心情写了，这几天打开部落格，都不知道要怎么去开始。

为什么我会用感同身受这题目呢，因为最近爱上听这首歌。

有谁流过眼泪 请说

有谁没有哭过 请说

你也怎么能爱过 

如果那个是我可能比你更失落。

好喜欢这歌词。没有一个人是没有流过眼泪的，伤心过得。每个人都差不多。

上星期天的凌晨的四点多，都快五点了，已经打算要睡了，她竟然没睡！拨了个电话，去载她找她x做个了断。既然已经那么坚持，坚持要给人枪毙，那只好让你去吧。当然我的心是不愿意啦，一直在路上骂你，怎样说你都听不进去。老实说我真的很生气，我真的很气你，答应过我，你会放下，你不会望回头，可是你就是心软。我一直都认为，却对你很有信心，你可以为你自己办到，可是你这次这样做，让我很失望。一段感情，断了就是断了，就算修补回去，还是会有裂痕的。既然你已经和他，做个了断了，那你可以死心了，忘记他吧。重新做人，做个新的自己。不要逗留以前的日子了，往前看了。留一点爱的力气去等待对的人出现 ,别为了错的人去爱的精疲力尽。

其实我看见你这样子，我真的会心痛的咯，

还看见你的手被刮伤，更痛。

我不懂要说你傻还是笨，不过你真的的却是。

所以别问我这个问题了， 因为已经过去了。

我不懂还能为你做些什么，或许我的肩膀对你有效吧。

我是不会看见你最丑的一面，想哭就哭吧。哭过就好了。

最近的我，二十一天了，原来我度过整整的二十一天了。

呼吸也变得正常了，没有你的日子，我的却过得很好。可是还是有烦恼。

但不是你的烦恼。

烦都是烦我的事情，烦钱，烦到底有没有花红。唉~

值得高兴的是，新车终于到手了。不用烦了。

所以没有你的二十一天，我还是那么的好，活得比从前更好！

Pain. Stuck. Full

A very early morning, i was awake because is too hot for my room.. no open air cond due to my fever is come back again, aiks, and i pain is because due to muscle pain, back, hold leg & my neck too. I'm too old for seldom going for to sports recently, once back to sport, is like making me so sick of this.

Recently settle down quite alot my personal things, use money like water.

i'm stuck is because, thursday i should get my new car, mana tau postponed til yesterday, manatau yesterday postponed again, dunno when is the date i can take my car ... and my parents was keep on asking me when can take? i hate like rushing people while calling and asking them when can take the car? is because the salesman is my friend dad.. i not really like to disturb people on that way.

For this month i really must gonna save until end of the month, due to i use too much money for changing myself. So yesterday i was just cut a short hair and dye my hair too, and of course recently my hair got allergy of scrup, so do along the scrup treatment, cost me alots.. and got get my new phone too. although the phone is got abit outdated, at least i just wanna have a touch screen for me for syok sendiri. ><

This two days also see foods also FULL, yesterday night eat dim sum til FULL, FULL til can't even can sleep.. what the hell! and today attend Jason Bachelor night for buffet steambot at sunway, i already expected will be a big disaster on the road, is really happen! i from 7.10pm from my house go there, need take around almost 2 hours reach sunway.. is so freaking traffic jam!!!!!!! crazy!!!! so reach there, i'm just like african people, hungry like hell, no images when i eating those foods.. LOL.. one word again FULL. got abit phobia for looking those foods.. feel like wanna vomit.. GOSH..

Ok la is time i going to bed and rest again, later still need to have work.

I'm Who i am

I'm who i am,

I have nothing to said more on you.

Is totally fed up on you.

I will just do my things, as long as i just done my task.

I'm not gonna who right or wrong.

I'm been very tolerate start talking with you, but you just thought i'm wood.

Fine! Pissed me OFF!

I'm will just be I'm who i am!

About yesterday mentality almost break, still da same,

I hope everything really going smooth to me.

I hate trouble,

I hate frustration,

I hate not being not so good,

I hate i'm not good in decision maker,

at Last i feel sorry, and feel very troublesome.

because of him, i need take my full responsibility, is really out if my expectation.

because of this,

Is make me Mad.

Is make me Crazy,

Is make me disappointed,

Is make me mood gone,

Is make me angry,

At last get sad, unhappy....

Please don't give me any trouble,

Please go away! 

无助

我感到非常内疚，

我是破坏者，

我不知道怎样面对你们，

我精神上快要崩溃了，

 一直想要迈向前进的我，还是犯了错误。

我．．．．．真的快要疯了。

好无助，

我跌进一个好深好深的谷底了，

没人救得了我。

我失去了方向，心情０下几百度。

我只能向你们道歉，对不起，万分抱歉。

无消息的第十一天

还是一样的，刚工作回到家，无所事事的一直玩着我的动物园，真的让人头痛。所以说人生就好像一场游戏，怎样都是要渡过难关，努力的思考，才会完成那个游戏。所以我们人都是一样，不是每一件事情都看得那么简单。凡是都要努力的去思考，经历过，这才叫做人生。

身边的朋友，分分合合的，有悲又有伤。

至于Eva我相信她开始办到了，看得出她比以前看得开了，也坚强了，也开始努力的去为自己而活和奋斗。虽然还是会有回忆，还会想起，至少你没以前那么懦弱了。要加油哦。留一点爱的力气去等待对的人出现 ,别为了错的人去爱的精疲力尽。

至于Crystal，我不知道她的感情发生了什么事，看得出她的心伤的很重。但或许时间能医疗到她的心吧。每一天的半夜，看见她的每一个的post, 我都有留言鼓励她，支持她。希望她能放得下吧。你都自己说了“虽然有时,我依然是哭泣地度过, 但擦干泪水以后, 我就会告诉自己, 我会坚强的! 经得起风浪的人, 才会升级！”我一定相信你能办得到的。

至于小妹，最了解就是你的啦。这次还闹出说分手，你知不知道这两个字不可以随便乱说的吗？要想清楚哦。我希望你也不要胡思乱想了，两个人在一起就是要互相的体谅，互相的关怀，互相的给对方信心和支持。虽然他的一举一动让到你觉得好像对你冷落，可是并不代表他的心也对你那么冷落吗，对不对。我知道，也依然的相信，你们是相爱对方的。要珍惜下去哦。不要乱乱说分手了。

至于我？第十一天了，我有想她吗？

一两天会有，也是最后的一次了。会不会再重来一次呢？问命运吧。

我会鼓励别人，为什么我不能呢？ 我相信我也能办到的。我是不会放弃的。

我应该必须这样想，放手未必是会最大的折磨 ，有些时候放手是还给自己一个未来。

该放手了就放手了，
要好好的爱自己多多了。不然我连爱自己都学不懂了。

Sorry? 对不起？

这几天工作还是一样，他还是不理不睬的。没关系，因为我已经不在乎了。

我还是继续做我该做的事情，慢慢吞吞工作的你，我已经不想再告诉你必须做些什么。

而且对不起，因为我不是看你的脸色来做人和工作的。都要快三十岁的人了，还要那么幼稚，我鬼懂你那时候不爽啊，心情不好啊？ 你脸有写着“我心情不好”吗？ 他妈的！看你这样子，才费时间去管那么多。

话回好的，刚接到银行的通知，终于我买车的贷款终于approve了。

现在要等的就是车的来临。期待。

然后最近的心情好很多了，但还是会想，可是不会想到不开心了。

因为我真的很累，就算泪了，我的泪都流在心里了，已经慢慢的放弃了。

你让我受过的伤害，又为我在我心里开过多一次手术的你，我已经找到解方去医自己了，虽然过程中会有少少的痛，但我是不会为我而自己放弃的，对你的回忆也开始模糊了。

可是我的心还是那么的恨你和我。

恨我自己我有多么的爱你，也恨你的冷酷无情。

我恨我爱你。

Normal. Normal

As usual back from work, sure sleep, but today can't sleep.

Came back from work, playing my Facebook game - Zoo world. is quite interesting game.

Ok, biar the game topic.

Back to myself, finally my CNY stuff is settle. now waiting for colouring my hair & cut hair.

Need wait, must patient, because my hair is very fast to grow, like grass very fast -.-

so far now, bank just calling me once for update my information to them for my new car, now is waiting confirm, aiks.. still waiting, waiting & waiting, hopefully can confirm & approve my loan. Then still need to go JPJ for getting car number, aiks. MAFAN! but no choice la, getting something new is like that. patient! patient! And of course, 1 more thing i need to wait is my BONUS!!!! & my INCREMENT!!! hopefully have great news. But a great news happen is , My CNY leave is approve! a good CNY holiday to me for this year.

By the way, back to my feeling.

my feeling still normal as normal, very neutral.

Just what i need is i need more entertainment! maybe is time for me to get back myself for playing games! games! games! should be alright for me. And recently also if want sleep, from morning sleep til 5 or 6pm, then night going out cheer, because i just wanna my time passing fast, don't want to get slower & slower.

So do i need LOVE?

i think my entertainment was fullfill my wound.

what i need now is FRIENDS.

我还并不是你们想象中的快乐

我，还并不是你们想象中的快乐。

虽然事情告了段落，但我的笑容并不是开朗的。

一棵又再伤过的心 ，一片一片的碎片，还是需要时间恢复原型。

可是最近又发生不知道什么事情，我完全不知道什么原因。

但是我可以肯定，我没有做错什么事情，却不知道什么原因而导致你那么不爽我。

而我没做错事情，还发讯息向你道歉，我真的不知道发生什么事！

不过我也觉得算了，我会继续做我应该做的事，做回自己的本分就够了，少多管闲事了。

你做错，也不关我的事，因为我不想自己去自作多情。因为我觉得我们在工作上，大家都了解我们在工作上必须遵守的规则和完成手上的工作，我并不是说我自己有多能干，但我可以证明我自己，我的却是能干过你！因为我想进步。还是那一句，我问心无愧！我工作到很开心，也不想因为你的一个不存在，而放弃我的事业。然后当然继续做回自己该做的事情，完成手上的任务。

谢谢我朋友的关心，支持！

老实说我需要的是， 能倾诉的，支持我，帮我的朋友。

我有你们这些好朋友，我足够了。

而至于我感情的事，

你给自己的希望越大，最后得到的伤害更大！

付出多又怎样？爱情不是一起努力的吗？

迁就了，还说委屈！

那么到底爱情是什么？

你们还可以解释给我听吗？

既然都死了心，我还是忘了吧。

改变自己，改变生活。

 

路还很遥远，我还得一步又一步的走下去，每段事情总会有终点。

做回自己了，你的绝情我不会再受委屈了，也不再回忆了。

黄靖懿，很快回来的。

-完-

陌生人

我终于明白了,也领悟了。

原来短短的一秒钟，什么事情都会变得很快。

一旦发生了，就很难得去改变了。

爱，让我们成为了陌生人。

一场的陌生人, 就这样的发生了。

难过也难过了，

恨也恨过了，

气也气够了，

痛也痛过了，

泪也泪过了，

我很快回来, 因为我会记住你带给我的伤害!

但也会忘了你, 因为你的回忆已经是我忘了你的终点。

从哪里跌下去了，我会很快爬起来。

Heart.Breaker

Yesterday, going to exhibition for multimedia students at TARC with Mikka.

Anyway well done to all of you guys, you guys really done a very good job for your final project!

Hmm, and i also expecting that i will be looking for someone..

Yes, is really happen! she know tat!

I just wanna tested her, issit she dare to face me or not, Mikka was holding me and pass by her, but she doesn't even look at me at all, that time i was know she not brave to facing me!

Afterthat, i was calling her, and ask her face to face and talk, i know i will want her back, and sure know the last answer, and telling me that, now i face to face talk with you more easy to settle our problem! that was so bullshit! i pass by you, you don't tell me that you don't know? thats call wanna face me? you're avoiding me! and you're scared! scared wanna ask your bro come and help? you scared i will whack him? seriously i won't do that, and you're too cool, very cool to me! you want settle til clean clean, yeap! i respect you! asking me deleted your phone number in front of you! yes, i do that! afterthat, do you know asking me deleted your phone number in front of you, that was so cruel & crazy after i deleted? i was so heart break!!!! speechless! dammit!!!!! is fully no comment!!! and spoil eveything!!!! and said i don't even know you at all, better than still can be friend.. more totally no comment! so you want me deleted your phone number, alright! eveything deleted!!! more happy rite? and i have gf or no gf thats not important to you & me too.

And thanks to Mikka, Caryn, Su yee & Su Ling with me for yesterday and celebrate Caryn Birthday, back to the memories place having dinner, and erase the memories at there! All the time i pretend, pretend and still pretend, i was totally exhausted & tired after i reach home!

I was telling myself, don't drop tears, i must sleep!

but at last a call, i drop! and sorry for letting you worried, and hearing my another voice.

At last, i sleep... just rest...

-End- (will be update my outing for Caryn birthday)

Thinking . Expecting.

The 2nd post for my year 2010, hola!!! This few days for the 2010, is just usual and normal. Phew..

What am i gonna to said is i'm start to having more simple life? can said that? i'm not sure, because we're not god, we can't predict what we will gonna happen on the next.

So yesterday really is a tiring day for me..but never mind la, is worth! Best friend asking me for sing K!

back from work at 7am, sleep a while then 10am wake up then go sing K with friends, afterthat walk around til 3pm reach home.. fuuuuu...tired til like hell, then sleep again, 7pm wake up prepared for going work! but also tired like hell, Beh tahan! so today reach home at 7pm then sleep til 6pm wake up! Gosh, pig like hell, 12 hours long sleep. What a day!

Hmm so what am i thinking now?

i dunno what she doing right now, i'm so damn worried her.

she want my shoulder, but i can't give her right now, because of the appointment. damn!

anyway i hope you alright.

By the way, the feeling is really unexpected, i can't answer what of the feeling right now to you. is just like a puzzle.

Will be fine soon.

Welcome 2010

English Version :

Goodbye to 2009 and hello to Year 2010. 

Hmm New year with new target, New Beginning, New Story, New Life, New Achievement!

So i hope i do make it all my entire year for the 2010. 

in 2009, i gain, i hurt, i crazy, i happy, i love, i cheers, i break, i challenge and of course i Learned, never regret for what i really doing for my entire year of 2009. so 2010 i believe and i trust is will be a good & remarkable year for me, i understand when the new year is come, is time we need to keep on moving forward and forget the past and live strong from now on ! All da best for all you too !

Chinese Version:

曾经拥有的不要忘记，

属于自己的不要放弃，

辛苦得来的更要珍惜，

已经失去了当作回忆，

走过的路已成过去，

愿你们的未来一切都能随心所欲！

加油吧